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Good.

On October 21, 2020November 15, 2020 By borderlinebutterflyIn incompleteLeave a comment

Am I a good person? I can say nice things and do good deeds, but am I a nice person? Are my thoughts nice?

Review.

On September 29, 2020November 19, 2020 By borderlinebutterflyIn incomplete1 Comment

Going through old writings, and it's tough. I should have fought harder. I just didn't — couldn't — believe, it would get so bad.

Gaslighting.

On February 25, 2020 By borderlinebutterflyIn incomplete1 Comment

It wasn't until my September 2000 suicide attempt that I learned about gaslighting. Until my hospitalization, my therapy was observed and critiqued by my abusers.

Picky.

On February 14, 2020 By borderlinebutterflyIn incompleteLeave a comment

Since I was little, I've been called picky. When I was old enough to try new things — I didn't.

Hate.

On February 14, 2020February 14, 2020 By borderlinebutterflyIn incompleteLeave a comment

Most people with mental illness are not violent and only 3-5% of violent acts can be attributed to individuals living with a serious mental illness. People with severe mental illnesses are over 10 times more likely to be victims of violent crime than the general population.

Hopeless.

On February 14, 2020 By borderlinebutterflyIn incompleteLeave a comment

I must have seen a half dozen psychologists in as many years. Why couldn’t any of them figure out what was wrong with me?

Who’s Who.

I’m Nicole. This is my story.

I was hospitalized after a suicide attempt in 2000, diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and adult ADHD in 2001, and PTSD in 2013.

Tyrone is my late ex-husband.  We were married from 1993 to 2001. He died from depression in 2007.

Donna is his mother. Frank is his father. He has one brother.

Stuart and Coraline are mine with Tyrone. They were born in 1995 and 1997.

Westley is my husband now. We married in 2006. We first dated in high school.

Rebecca is his/our oldest. She was born in 1993. She lived with us for a few years as a teen.

Stuart chose to become estranged in 2012, and moved in with Donna and Frank his senior year of high school. He has not spoken to me since 2013, and has very limited contact with other family members, by his choice.

Nicole.

Recent Posts

  • Severed.
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  • Lighter.
  • Healing.
  • Abuse.
  • Good.
  • Estranged.
  • Re-release.
  • Release.
  • Review.
  • Twenty.
  • Inspire.
  • Becoming.
  • Disappoint.
  • Gaslighting.
  • Detached.
  • Withdrawn.
  • Bittersweet.
  • Identity.
  • Fugue.
  • Mirrors.
  • Picky.
  • Hate.
  • Fragmented.
  • Kidnapped.
  • Death.
  • Diagnosis.
  • Alienation.
  • Hopeless.
  • Wrongness.
  • Moments.
  • Invisible.
  • Sensitive.
  • Collapse.
  • Storytelling.
  • Learning.
  • Nine.
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  • Seven.
  • Six.
  • Five.
  • Four.
  • Three.
  • Two.
  • One.
  • Symptoms.
  • Escape.
  • Lucky.
  • Bursts.
  • Hindsight.
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