It wasn't until my September 2000 suicide attempt that I learned about gaslighting. Until my hospitalization, my therapy was observed and critiqued by my abusers.
"I want to die, and God won't let me." Those were the first words I was able to send across Instant Messenger after an attempt to decongest myself to death.
Self-harm. One symptom of borderline personality disorder.
Suicide is not about wanting to die. It is about escaping unimaginable pain. If you think suicide is selfish, you're not going to have a good time here, on my blog.
My first day of recovery was The Day I Didn't Die. This year I'm celebrating 20 years of a new life.